the whirly happenings for today has left me dumbfounded
and speechless
and i'm going to savor this moment... this moment of heightened stress
and LOVIN IT!!
i love life
it's sembreak...at last... and i left dumaguete with quite a bothered heart.... i've done a great deal of wrong things before leaving and the worse part of it is that half of those included my friends.... i can't even explain how things progressed and ended up with another party not feeling pleasant at all.... for the record, i've wronged 4 friends... and 3/4 confronted me.... the other one pseudo-confronted me....which still leaves me quite bothered because of some chance of not patching things up... the other one called me in the middle of the night screaming how much he hates me and all....which i whole-heartedly accepted and i appreciated because after the event where i failed him, he never replied na....and i asked for forgiveness... and after a few days...he called na nga.... to pour out how much he's upset with me...i have to make it up to him...pero at least we were able to talk kahit na i was so sleepy while talking with him... the other two....well...they confronted me.... the "do we have a problem" type of confrontation.... taken-aback since i was caught with another honest mistake i have to make it up to both of them...pero we're all patched up.... except the other one nalang....na sobrang namimiss ko na..pero how far should i go to patch things up?? siya mismo ayaw makipagconfront...
hai pambihira....
nadulas na nga ako sa kanya...
nadulas pa ako sa bukid.....
nadulas pa talaga ung grado ko sa majors!!!!
pambihira talaga!!
nakakawalang gana ang buhay
i'm going back to my ebony and ivory keys....
i'm trying to memorize All I Ask of You....
and i just started chasing cars of snow patrol....
la lang.... something to keep my heart preoccupied......
sige lang.....
i'll pour my heart out using those keys.... at least.......
sana ganon kadaling gawin lahat ng salitang kaya nating sambitin!!
para di na ako mahirapan....para di ko na kelangan pa magpakalunod sa ilang toneladang alak at sigarilyo.... para di ako masaktan ng todo kapag kaharap kita.....
ayoko na masaktan....
ayoko na ring gumanti....
ayos lang kase masaya ka na sa piling ng iba.....
ayos lang kahit na wala na akong kuwenta sa buhay mo....
ayos lang.....
so simula ngayon......di na ako magpaparamdam pa....
babalikan ko nalang ung malungkot kong piano.....
magpapakalunod ako sa pagtugtog ng mga piyesang makikidalamhati sa mga nararamdaman ko......
paalam kaibigan.............
