July 5th, 2009

the perfect one

the perfect one.... he just landed in my arms three months ago.... and i managed to drive him away after three months....


so now they've concluded "you're scared to be loved."


i just stare...


because....


i am...


i am...


i'm tired of rationalizing why....


but i am! i am scared......

Currently listening to: on and on by stephen bishop
Currently reading: my thoughts
Currently feeling: sad
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April 21st, 2009

ang daya!

i can't weave any more words or aphorisms to describe what has just pierced into me...... i was just wondering how you were.... so i checked your account.... that was quite dumb of me really....just to satisfy my stupid curiosity.... so there.... tear-inducing..... i felt so pathetic.... seeing you happy... happy with her..... doing what you do.... just being you.... i know.... it's what most girls wish for.... i remembered everything about you....by simply being you, you make a woman feel treasured.....

pero...........


maybe it was not our time.... everything was right but it was not yet our time.... so..... what's left for me to do is to be happy for you...... kahit na mejo may kirot pa....

Currently listening to: loving you - paolo nutini
Currently reading: love in time of cholera
Currently feeling: envious
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January 9th, 2009

new year...!!

it's new year...and i honestly came into my senses na... i'm cutting out on a few things... so here are a few of my resolutions (if that's what you call it)hahaha

so this year, i'm cutting out on:

1. sticks of relief and alcohol....(i've started this na before new year...accomplished for a month na!!)

2. food...i have to lose a little weight because gaining weight sure caused me this condition (i'm under medication for 4 months)

3. him...yes...i've grown tired...sure i like him around... but i shouldn't have allowed myself to fall into my self-created trap..misunderstanding everything...basta! honestly... i rest my case... this wouldn't get any further na


other bad habits? i'll keep them muna...hahaha

Currently listening to: bee gees
Currently reading: venus in spurs
Currently feeling: i'll have a conference with the dean tomorrow!!
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November 8th, 2008

memoirs

oh well


i'm scanning through some old emails....and for the whole day, i was soaked with all those memories... especially from all the men who passed by my life.... from flings to those who allegedly "loved me" and those two guys i loved... and..... it's just amazing how time passed.... i've read the goodbye mails... the "i miss you" mails from some close friends.... everything was a blur... i recognize some mails while i was astounded by some mails - it felt like i haven't read them at all....


hai...


i'm just being nostalgic....


i realized how much has changed....but still there are some things that remain to be the same....


i love my life!

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November 6th, 2008

pag sinabi ng eX mo....

answer daw with an honest heart. An honest heart

will give you good luck for the entire

year. You may imagine of one people or

maybe some people not only one. Answer

it, "What if your ex says"

.

1. Why did you let me go?

- I had to..un gusto mo dba?

2. I still love you

- So?

3. When did we last talk?

- Now? or were you talking to yourself?

4. Will you go out with me?

- Why not?

5. Hey, can i give you a ride?

- Sure

6. I cannot keep my promise to you.

- I knew it

7. My friends say we don't look good together.

- Haha... masyado ka nilang minamaliit!

8. You have changed.

- Change is the only constant thing...dba?

9. Can we get back together?

- I'm not ready for that

10. Oh, I know what this is all about. You found someone else.

- You talking to yourself?

11. Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!

- We both hurt each other...wag magmalinis!

12. How can u forget our memories??

- Whoever told you i forgot??

13. I will always love you.

- I guess i do too....but not the same as before.....

Currently listening to: before i let you go - freestyle (masyadong timing!)
Currently reading: rereading By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept
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